Updated: Oct 10, 2019
birds who trust each other
We trust people
To be there when they said they would
To believe us
To be kind
To accept us when we are putting ourselves out there
To treat us like they would want to be treated
To have our best interest in mind
To be careful with our hearts
To give us good advice
To know we are doing our best
To speak kindly about us to others
To keep our secrets
When they fall short we feel hurt, betrayed, rejected, disappointed, alone.
Sometimes we resort to managing others' stuff in order to feel that safe feeling.
We don't rely on them to pick us up in case they don't show
We don't tell them the truth in case they can't handle it
We don't share our burdens in case they see us in a bad light
We pretend to be someone else so they won't reject us
We opt out of connected friendships so it won't hurt if they don't treat us like we want
We feel betrayed when someone looks out for themselves before us
We hide so we won't get hurt
We are afraid to hope in case it doesn't work out
We give half of an effort in case we fail
We sit on secrets in shame
Many times we resort to a life-game of curling where we try to stay three steps ahead of the other person's stone, clearing a path taking it where we think it should go. We end up spending the energy we need for healing on managing things beyond our control and appropriate boundaries.
But those feelings of fear are SO REAL! What do we do with them? Sit on them?
We know that when that happens they just hatch and multiply into baby fears that grow up into bigger fears.
So what can we do with those feelings?
Here it is:
When it boils down to the very basics, we aren't afraid of what others will do, we are afraid that we won't be able to handle it when it happens.
I say "when" because humans fall short.
They will be rude, evil, mean, unreliable, messy, reckless, selfish, backbiting, and just plain human.
This is the life we live in. Half good, half bad. Half pleasant, have not-so-much. And yet, you can still thrive.
When you trust yourself you are free to love without fearing that fall.
How do you show up when you love without fear? IT'S AMAZING!
When you trust yourself to handle the whispers behind your back when someone finds out your main weakness, you are free to be 100% you. And you find that the people who stay in your life are people who can live with mistakes and shortcomings. I LOVE THOSE KIND OF PEOPLE!
When you trust yourself to do your very best, even when it doesn't look like it used to, or what you hoped to get done, and still love you just as much, you don't need others to approve of the marks on your to-do list. And you find that you become more okay with the best that others can do...and can let that go.
What could you do if you...
Trusted yourself to be your best friend, ever, no matter what.
Trusted yourself to be your loudest cheerleader when someone else doesn't believe you are sick.
Trusted yourself to be the resourceful person you are when someone else doesn't show up like they said they would.
Trusted yourself to stand strong.
To be kind.
To be loyal, understanding, faithful, persistent, non-judgmental, accepting.
WHAT COULD YOU DO?
What would show up in your life as a result?
What could you do if you were not afraid of what others could do to you?
What could you do if you were not afraid of what life hands you?
Who would you be?
I dare you to find out.